Enough.

Have you ever had the thought, “what else?” or “how much more?” Responsibilities, health, to do list, etc. You are spreading yourself thin and then all the sudden it’s as if your body screams, “ENOUGH! Stop! I can’t carry you around one more minute unless you slow down and rest!”

If you HAVE been in this place, I hope this post gives you hope from someone in the enough-stop-rest place at this very moment.

January is both a joyous and emotional hard month for my soul. So many memories of new beginnings and firsts for me as a Mommy and welcoming my Lucy. And also welcoming many beginnings of new life in our family. However with the beginnings and firsts as a Mommy comes a lot of good core memories to embrace, but it also comes with a deep and wide hole in my life that is excruciating in so many ways. We made so many memories just in the first few weeks of her life – NICU, snowed in at a hotel, interstate paperwork, and finally coming home.

Bottom line: I love January. The cold weather, the fact that so many I love were born in January, and the memories that I have with my precious little girl.

This January has not been much different from past Januarys, except for a few extra appointments here and there, some medical things to work through.

However, there are these times when I know when I hit complete depletion. I feel sick, weak, absolutely no energy, barely any appetite – and I instantly know – Jesus is calling me to slow down, at some points to completely give up and rest. This week he has knocked me back in bed or in a comfy chair and said, “Be still.” I’ve had migraines, but I am not actually sick with anything diagnosable. I am in need of rest and time to be still in His presence.

As I give up today, I encourage you to pay attention to when He asks you to be still. I have found that many times that it takes a migraine or a sick feeling to slow me down enough to hear his voice. That’s not what he desires. So I encourage you that sometimes the strongest, bravest thing to do is to say, “I can’t – I need rest – I need stillness.”

I’m off to do the same 😊 Cling to Jesus just as my girl is clinging to my finger 💕

Life Book of the Week: God gave us Sleep, by Lisa Bergren